A day in a life

For those of you who feel compelled to think ok "your a stay at home wife/mommy she sits and watches soap operas all day long" the answer would be NO! Until I fully explain a day in the life of what I ACTUALLY DO then you will see differently!

    We will start with number one! No matter how old your child is you NEVER get a full 8 hours of sleep! So I always begin my morning around 3-5am, depending on if Zoe will let me get extra sleep or not. I roll out of the bed stumbling into the kitchen, and go get her a bottle and make her 6 ounces of formula. Then after forcing to make myself to stay awake through her bottle, she gets burped, then a change of diaper to avoid a mess in the next couple hours! Then wake up around 8-9am then have to get her another bottle this time 8 ounces, same thing again burp, and change her diaper! You would think ok baby is fed, changed and happy and content now she can watch tv! Again you would be WRONG! Now it is time to set the meat out to thaw for enough time for me to cook, and to have food ready for my husband when he gets off (take note that my husband does shift work and works 12 hour shifts). Then within the time frame of 2-3 hours that I do have to spare, before I have to feed Zoe again, I begin to clean the house up, not in a sping cleaning kind of way but to where it is presentable! After this, I have just enough time to wash mine and my husbands clothes and put them into the dryer and put Zoes clothes in the washer ( so I am doing 3 seperate loads of clothes. Mine and my husbands, whites, then the babys clothes).  Hold off folding the enormous mountain of clothes to feed, burp and change Zoes diaper again. NOW I can resume to fold and hang up clothes, after this its time for "tummy-time" for at the very least ten minutes.

   Well after "Tummy-time" is over I put Zoe down for a nap (if your child is like mine, you will get a 10 minute power nap at the MAX!) That gives me just enough time to get the dishes washed. Take another time out to have "play-time" with Zoe. We will do this for about 20-30 minutes, then put her down so I can wash the 15 bottles that I have for her! (My baby is a healthy eater as I've been told!) Which would explain why I have so MANY bottles. Ok well now that I went off topic here, now after the bottles are washed, and put away. As you all can guess it is feeding time, but this time it is to feed her solids. After she has eaten her solids it is either juice/formula depending on the day, burp, and change diaper. Now it is time again for NAP time, although most the time I put on food network and she will watch that so I can get the cooking done, since my daughter takes like one nap a day that lasts 10 minutes, as I've already explained. I cook dinner get it ready, then my husband comes home from work (need I remind you this is what I do when he works his day shift from 5:30am-5:30pm) the night time shift works a little bit differently I do all the same things just in a different order. Well back to the topic at hand, you would think "ok her husband is home now time to relax!) AGAIN you would be wrong. Although it is easier I still have things to do but at least my husband can entertain and take care of Zoe while I clean up the kitchen after dinner.

   Now I can take a SEMI shower/Bath, for those of you who does not know what that is let me explain: Its /enough time to make sure your cleaned and have your teeth brushed, within a 10 minute time frame. After I get done doing this my husband goes to sleep fairly early around 7-8pm. Now time for Zoes bath and get her ready for bed. At LAST I feed, burp and change her diaper, for the last time and she goes down for bed, until I get woken up again and do the same thing ALL OVER again! So thats is a day in the life of what I do each and everyday! Not as easy as you thought huh? I don't complain though because through the midst of it all I love my daughter and husband and love taking care of my daughter, and seeing her everyday a lot of people do not get the pleasure of doing this with their kids. My husband works very hard to take care of me, and our daughter so this is the LEAST I could do! I would do it all over again too! :)

And now I leave you all with a picture of my gorgeous daughter that makes me smile everyday for you to see why I love  staying home with her being a stay at home mommy and wife! ENJOY!!

Past- Present

Past

                                                    When she was born she was so teeny

Zoe Ann Marie Simmons 

                                                                       

Present

Almost five months old now!

Absolutely gorgeous...

Mama

   It amazes me everyday how much Zoe is growing up! Just last week she spoke her "first" word! She said "Muh-ma" The night before she said it officially I was doing the nightly mommy duties and was changing her diaper. I heard her babbling and briefly heard her say it before, I thought she said it at that time. Then thought oh no shes just babbling. I told Mitchell I think she said "mama" he was like no she was just babbling because she said in a way that it wasn't understandable! So I thought nothing of it, next morning I had to go to the grocery store.  We were low on food, got all the things that I needed, checked out and headed home. As I was lugging all the groceries in while Mitchell was watching Zoe he told me  "I have something to show you!" Not thinking anything of it because he always takes videos of her doing things. Watched it and she said mmm mah-ma! I instantly cried because I was so happy that my baby said her "first word". Then I was a little sad that I missed it, the one day that I was not around her all day and she says it! Then started cooking after putting her down for "tummy-time", she was soo excited she kept saying mah-ma, like 10 times in an hour! It was so adorable!
   I want to take the time to talk about Mitchell ( my husband) for a little bit. When we met which was almost two years ago, it was through my aunt. We went to the same event together, and not even knowing that  is when he saw me, because it was my cousins wedding and I went with my family and he came by himself, he was a family friend! I never saw him at all, then my aunt contacted me and told me "there is a guy that likes you and would like to talk to you" At that point I had alot going on in my life so I held off. One day I had an event to be at my co-worker was getting married, so we had a dinner for her. I kept thinking to myself "well you have had time to your self, so it will be fine to talk to a male at this point in time". Anyways fast-foward I ended up calling him after getting his number from my aunt. We talked from about 10pm till 5am, about likes and dislikes and just general things. Well things progressed from there and I moved all the way from Bryan/College Station, Texas to Bastrop. It was wonderful we never really fought and the fights we had subsided after all of maybe 10 minutes. I love him dearly he's always been there for me when I needed it most, and loved me through my faults. He asked me to marry him and I said "yes" of course. It was wonderful I never met a man like him, he is young (as am I, we are about a month or two apart in age) but very stable, and smart! Works efficiently and works hard. He has worked at his job at the time for almost 5 years then got another job, and has been there for almost a year and half. I always enjoy his company and can't wait till he gets home, (he works 12 hour shifts). Well we were planning our wedding when I found out that I was pregnant in february, so we had to move up the date to April 2, 2010 since I was due in October when we were planning on getting married. I did not want to be a duck walking bride haha. Now that we have our daughter he is such a wonderful man, he works and comes home and helps me with Zoe, so that I can have some "me" time. He's a wonderful provider, father figure, and husband. I thank god that I was blessed with him entering into my life and giving me the most wonderful gift i've been given, which is my daughter. I know this kind of seems all over the place, but I had to talk about my baby's first word and my awesome husband all in the same blog.
  

Questions?

Today has been one of those days that i've questioned every aspect of my life! I hate it when I do this. Ive always been the type of person that have been stereotyped I should say, I often wondered how I could have prevented that? Ive made mistakes in the past that ive questioned myself constantly about how i could have thought it out and how could I have done it differently? Would it have made the out-come a little different? Ugh...I hate questioning myself, makes me feel vulnerable for people to have an insight into my life and realize not everything has been all peachy as its been masked to be! What purpose do I serve? I feel as if I haven't really accomplished as much as I believe that I could have. I know I am smart, just not in a book-smart kind of way. Why cant people see that? Why do people have to hold grudges for so long? Only to find out life is way to short to be mad at someone. How many people have I hurt, when I have done something out of stupidity? Don't get me wrong I love my husband and my daughter with every breath I take, I just wonder if I take life and people that are in my life for granted? How can I change this? How can I change all the terrible things that have happened to me in the past to where I don't have to be reminded everyday of my life? Am I really a terrible person? Will I be a good mother? Am i a bad friend, it just seems like sometimes I don't know anymore! I just don't see it, i've changed myself for the better, to not be the person that I used to be when I was young... You know stupid, forgiving, too nice, talking about people behind their backs, spreading rumors, lying...all the high school stuff that you go through to break through to the true person that is there...The one that no one had a clue that was actually there because of a facade. Do people forgive? Isn't life a little too short, to well lets quote "forgive and forget?" I grew up, why don't the people that matter the most see this?

I have no clue as to why I keep questioning myself I sometimes feel as if I am all alone in the world, with no friends beside me because I push people away. Why do I push people away, and keep them at arms length? Why cant I let people in and let them see the true side of me? The one that no one often gets to see? Which is in all reality if people would stop going off assumptions, and things that they have "heard" you'd realize I have changed and it's all because of one well two people and that would be my daughter and my husband (Mitchell). Why cant people see that through the tough exterior there is a lonely, sweet fun-loving, willing to give the shirt of my back if you needed it, mature, not so high strung person? Why do I often feel defensive? Why do I feel like I have to prove myself to people? When it gets me absolutely no where at all.


                                      Why do I always question myself?

Now...

As of today Zoe is almost 5 months old! She will be officially 5 months old on the 12th of this month. I could not be anymore proud of my daughter she is absolutely the greatest thing I have been blessed with since I met my husband (Mitchell) my life revolves arounds her paying little attention to myself and selfish needs that I used to always think that were so important! It's amazing how my life has changed so much within just one yr of finding out that I was pregnant. I've honestly cut alot of people out of my life that was of negative influence to myself and my daughter! I had to mature as an responsible adult and take care of someone asides myself, that depended on me almost every moment of the day! But I am ready for the task at hand. I want what's best for my daughter even if it means to have no friends at all to make that all possible for her to have the best influences and morals and not grow up and let others walk all over her as I let others to me! I am determined to be the best mother I can be, as my mother was to me all these years I want her to be independent, smart, and not to  make mistakes that I have made in life, to regret years later after seeing how I've been affected as well as others! I'm turning over a new leaf. OUT WITH THE OLD AND IN WITH THE NEW!

2-4 months

Well the second to fourth months were the most life changing and that's where I saw how my little Zoe was developing. I got through her 1st cold when she was a little over 2 months old..It was hard to see quite honestly, I didn't know what I was going to do when she really got sick I was such a wreck when she just had a little cold! But she has been really good I think that she has an even better immune system than her father and I, put together. When she went to her 2 month check up she was nine pounds and another 2 inches taller then what she was last time she went to the Peditrician at two-weeks old so she was 22 inches long at this point, and she was developing so fast and good that I was told by her doctor that I could start her on solids at 3 months old..wow that made me happy my little princess is doing soo well! On the 12 when she turned 3 months old I started her on her solids at first with formula and cereal, she wasn't particular with that combination so I changed the nxt day to apples and oatmeal and it's like over night she became a pro at eating! Then as she progressed I also put her on sweet potatoes, and peaches. She was not a big pears or peas fan, so I pretty much stuck with that till 4 months old...then her 4 month check up came and wow did she jump up she went all the way to almost 16 pounds and 25 inches long and in the top 95th percentile in her weight and development. I was told when she goes in for her 6 month check up he will discuss our options with secondary foods! At this point lots had changed she learned to roll from her belly to her back, learning how to put her pacifier back in her mouth, trying to pull herself up, but only getting a small sit up out of it haha. Shed changed so much already!

Newborn- one month old

From the 3 day stay I had to endure at the hospital to going home with our newest addition to the family, I wad excited to be going hone to where I wasn't going to be woke up like 50 times a night! Driving home from Austin to bastrop which is 24 miles to be exact was when I was most nervous, I made sure Zoe was comfortable. Got to the house and honestly was in some pain due to getting my belly cut open..I was happy to be home though with my baby, it was kind of weird I thought that I was going to be very nervous about having to take care of a baby on my own, but I got blessed with a great baby! She did soo well, she didn't like her crib so I resulted into using the pack and play beside the couch and she would sleep much better at night as would I. The first month went by soo fast it seems, and then it was time for zoes two-week appointment. It went get she gained 3 pounds and got 2 inches longer, the nurses and her Peditrician were soo in love with her and said she was one of the best behaved babies they had ever seen. At one month old it was hard to get used to having someone depend on me on every aspect of their life but I loved every moment of it!